as a 19-year-old, i get to make all these decisions that used to be made for me. i get to worry about what comes after each step that i take. i now have the capacity to understand and even feel the ripple effect that my actions make. and no matter how well i know the adage about living for today, i'm plagued by memories of disappointment, failure, even heartache, while at the same time, haunted by anxiety over what is to come.
but instead of letting these swirling thoughts paralyze me, i'm going to get out of bed everyday. i'm going to continue going about my business. i'm going to do what makes me happy. i'm going to cherish my family and friends. i'm going to make mistakes. and learn from them. i'm going to have a sense of humor about my humanity. i'll do the very best that i can. i'm going to get up every time i fall. i'm going to continue to laugh, love, live, because these are the important things.
